Friday, April 4, 2008

Super Cute

This may just be silly, but...sometimes I look at all these friends of mine who are super cute and wonder how and why I am friends with them and why they want to be friends with me. They always look super cute, do super cute things for their families and friends, say super cute things, make everything super cute, and I'm just not. I feel like I am falling farther and farther behind in the super cute department. I used to do super cute things all the time. Now I'm just trying to SURVIVE day-to-day! I don't know what happened, or what went wrong. I feel like I'm never going to catch up on my life, because time keeps marching on and I am crawling. I don't know what to do to restore my former 'super cuteness'. In fact, I don't even know what to do to catch up, period. It's like they can't just stand still. You are always going one direction or the other. Sometimes I just want to hop on a plane and start all over or something, but I know that's impossible. Plus, I know that that is not really what I want.

I just want.... I don't know.... to feel like a normal person. I want to be a good wife, mother and homemaker. I want to create good experiences for my kids and for them to have a wonderful childhood. I want to teach them everything they need to know to face this world that keeps getting more and more wicked. I want to be a good wife and make my husband feel like a king. I want my home to be a beautiful, comfortable place where my kids are not embarrassed to bring their friends and where the Spirit can be felt when you walk in the door. I want my family and my friends to know how awesome they are and how special they are to me.

So, I guess it sounds like I want to be Superwoman. I suppose I need to realize that it's all not going to happen in one day, or one week, or one month. I just need to do the best I can everyday and not let myself get discouraged when I'm not being very 'Superwoman-like'. I need to treat everyone around me like they are the most important person in the world. And, I need to rely on the Lord. I need to pray every morning and night for strength, courage and to be filled with charity. That is the only way that this mortal is ever going to become a Superwoman.


  1. Jillian, you shouldn't be so hard on yourself. You do so many cute things. Your cards and scrapbooks are adorable. You're a great mom and I'm sure a wonderful wife. You are very much loved and appreciated. Recently I was feeling very frumpy and frustrated because I feel like I will never have enough money to keep up with the changing styles in clothing...then I heard this advice 'You don't have to change your wardrobe everytime the styles change. You don't have to feel your out of date if you don't have the newest things. Pick a few things you like the best from the trendy styles and get a couple cute things. You don't have to do everything that is trendy.' I don't know why but hearing that made me feel better. I always feel I'm behind on everything. Especially being here in Oregon where our sister-in-laws are very trendy and spend a lot on clothes, I always feel like I'm not good enough. Sooo that is my little tangent. I really just wanted you to know I think you are just so cute!

  2. I have always thought you were a SuperWoman!!! Mom of triplets, plus going to school and supporting your husband and doing so much with UVMOM--and I think you are super-cute too ;)
    P.S. I know what you mean though, I have felt the same way a lot, like you just can't keep up with everything, so I say don't. Do the best you can with what you've got and know that with the Lord's help, it IS enough.

  3. Jillian, I have always been amazed by you. I could never even survive triplets. You always seem so happy and like you have it all together. I know with the Lord that you can be Superwoman! I'm hoping he'll help me out too!


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